tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75540793653985685312024-03-05T15:09:54.150-05:00Home of the HansensErica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.comBlogger138125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-79322554867391270462014-07-08T23:09:00.001-04:002014-07-08T23:11:29.064-04:00oh life, and breaking up<div style="text-align: center;">
My thoughts are in so many places this evening that I am finding it difficult to express what is on my mind. For one, brokenness. The brokenness all around. Maybe God has opened my eyes to something bigger than myself recently, or maybe I am just now stopping to notice. There is so much hurt around me that I find myself on the verge of weeping when I really think about it. I'm not even going to try to put it into words for fear of simplifying something of such magnitude.</div>
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As far as our little family, we are doing well. Amber is growing like a weed, and Evie's communication continues to astonish me every day. She wakes up each morning with a hunger and zest for life that I can only wish I had. I am hanging in there - some days are better than others. I love these girls to bits and pieces, but sometimes I let life get the best of me. And so we continue to learn and grow together.</div>
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And here's where the breaking up comes into play... I need a break from blogging for awhile. (I know, I haven't been updating much anyway, but hear me out.) I love this little space for what it is - a place to dump my thoughts, save memories, and hopefully inspire someone on occasion. But it is poisoning my soul in this season of life. I am constantly trying to be something for an audience that truly doesn't matter. I want my family to appear as if we have it together. I want my daughters to seem quirky and trendy and lovely all the time. I feel pressured to capture photos that prove that our life is always beautiful and abundantly joyful. It is tiring, you know, trying to keep up with my idea of how my life should look. And so I have begun finding ways to cut out the noise, the distractions, the pressure. At the end of the day, I want to know that I have truly <i>lived</i>, not just made it seem so. I want to drink in all that the days have to offer. And so, for now, this is a step to a simpler life. It feels like stepping into the shady trees and taking a deep breath. If you do still read, please forgive me. I hope to be back someday, when I am ready. For now, I am free.</div>
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(I'll leave you with a few final photos.)</div>
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Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-75024731498211914862014-06-25T22:34:00.002-04:002014-06-25T22:34:34.157-04:00hi again<div style="text-align: center;">
I promise I haven't forgotten about this little space. Life is just busy, and I'm trying to enjoy living it every day. I've thought about quietly walking away from this internet nook, but I'm not ready to do that. Not yet, anyway. </div>
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So I guess this is really an update without an update. I have so much to catch up on - Evie turned two in May, and Amber will be four months old tomorrow! (Slow down, girls!) We are still learning what it means to be a family of four as I struggle to balance the needs of my daughters on a daily basis. Thank you to anyone who still reads this - I promise I have not abandoned you.</div>
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More to come.</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-63444963245476253032014-04-03T23:04:00.000-04:002014-04-03T23:04:11.081-04:00every morning<div style="text-align: center;">
Every morning, Evie wakes up groggy and cranky and wanting breakfast immediately. Every morning, she screams when we ask to change her diaper and when her breakfast isn't ready right when she wants it. Every morning, there are many tears.</div>
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Every morning.</div>
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It's no secret that the toddler years can be difficult for parents to maneuver. Children begin to find their independence, and they test the boundaries that parents set. This is all normal. But it's still so hard. I have really found myself struggling recently with some of Everlyn's behaviors. Make no mistake, she absolutely adores her new sister, but she's not so thrilled about having to share the time and attention that was once all hers. There are many tears and tantrums and time-outs in my days. Sometimes I find myself so frustrated or angry that I want to lock myself in the bathroom just to have five minutes of peace and clarity. It's during these times that I am gently reminded of His mercy. <i>His mercies are new every morning.</i> </div>
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When I stop to think about it, the similarities between my relationship with Evie and my relationship with God are quite astounding. Only, in the latter, I am the misbehaving child - the one who constantly makes the same bad decisions. Oh how frustrating I must be as a child of God! I'll admit that it's difficult to remember these things in the thick of the daily struggle, but as I reflect on my parenting choices at the end of the day, I make it a point to pray and refocus for the day to come. I need to be filled with grace and patience with the beautiful daughters God has given me. He has been merciful with me, and I need to be merciful with them.</div>
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<i>His mercies are new every morning.</i></div>
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And for that, I am so grateful.</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-68326453876861410262014-03-20T21:23:00.002-04:002014-03-20T21:23:55.680-04:00looking back<div style="text-align: center;">
Ever since Amber joined our family, I have found myself thinking about when we first brought Evie home less than two years ago. How incredibly long each day was. The seemingly endless crying (she was colicky, especially at night), the constant feedings, and the self-imposed hibernation period in which I didn't leave the house. I remember feeling like that season would never end - like I would never sleep or get out of our house. We were tired. We were short-tempered. I was depressed. It was a hard season indeed.</div>
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Looking back, it passed so quickly.</div>
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I find myself struggling to remember the details of her tiny, newborn baby self. How she smelled. How her cries were so tiny. How she looked when she slept. I took hundreds of photos and several videos, but I look back at these fragmented memories and think, "I wish I had more." </div>
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I wish I had seen more of the good in those very difficult early days. I wish I would have been more easygoing. </div>
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Now, my sweet Everlyn, the one who gave me the gift of motherhood, is a feisty, stubborn, tender-hearted toddler. She repeats herself a hundred times a day, stomps her little feet when she is angry, kisses her stuffed animals when she rocks them to sleep, and loves her sister in the purest way. She says the funniest things and has the most infectious toddler laugh. She loves animals and the outdoors and reading. </div>
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I completely understand now how it feels to love someone so much it actually aches sometimes. Being a mama has shown me how that is possible. I love to watch her grow and learn and explore, but my body physically hurts when I think about how fast these seasons come and go. I want to be the best mama I can be, for her and for Amber. </div>
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Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-92006197335900800642014-03-18T22:11:00.002-04:002014-03-18T22:11:10.463-04:00Amber's birth story - part 2<div style="text-align: center;">
As we were getting ready for our c-section, the head OB came in to do another internal exam. She told us that, although I was still losing blood, it seemed to be better controlled. They had also been able to get more consistent heart tones from the baby. All of this meant that our c-section would not be an emergency surgery; instead, Chris would be able to accompany me. I would also remain awake. This was such a relief! Then, as she was examining me, she commented that what she felt was not the placenta, but clots. I wasn't sure exactly what that meant, and she didn't elaborate - instead, she left briefly. When she came back, she told us that she was cautiously optimistic that we might be able to have this baby naturally! We were thrilled! I don't know how things changed so quickly, but I am so incredibly thankful that they did.</div>
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We were quickly transferred to a labor and delivery room. At this point, my contractions were very close together, and I was in a lot of pain. It got so intense that I began vomiting... not fun. However, I was only at 5 cm. The nurse offered me pain medications, but I declined. I was determined to labor naturally. My mother-in-law came in, followed soon by my mom. (Chris' sister went to stay at our house with Evie.) At this point, things are a little blurry for me. I know the residents came in a few times to check my progress, but all I remember is a whirlwind of pain and what seemed like one endless contraction. This fuzzy time only lasted about twenty five minutes though, because that's how long it took me to go from 5 cm to complete. The nurse was so sweet, too - I must've paged her three times or so within those last five minutes because I really felt like I needed to push, but my body just wasn't quite ready until that last call. The doctors came in, our moms left, and I was told to push during my next contraction. The pain during the actual delivery was so much worse than I remember with Evie, but luckily, it didn't last long. I pushed through three contractions before our beautiful baby's head came out.<br />
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There was a frantic hush among the doctors as they realized that the cord was wrapped around her neck not once, not twice, but three times. They quickly worked to unwrap the cord before her tiny, slippery body came sliding out. Finally, we heard her beautiful cries. I immediately said, "It's a girl!" Chris and I both began to tear up. They placed her immediately on my chest where she spent the next hour or so, nursing and cuddling. It was such a precious, sacred time - one that I wish I would have had with Everlyn when she was born. It really helped establish a deep, initial bond. <br />
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We named our sweet baby Amber Wilde. Amber is the name of my youth pastor's wife. She was such an important role model in my life, and her influence really showed me the kind of wife and mother I want to be. She is a beautiful person, inside and out. If our daughter grows up to be the same kind of woman as her, we will have done something right as parents.<br />
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Amber Wilde Hansen<br />
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Even though Amber wasn't born until Wednesday, the chaos in our home began on Monday evening when our hot water tank broke and flooded our basement (not what you want right before bringing home a new baby!) My poor husband was up most of the night scooping water and taking some of our belongings that had been damaged out to the trash. What a great guy! He only managed to get a few hours of sleep before heading into work on Tuesday. That evening, some wonderful friends from church came over and installed our new hot water tank - hallelujah! I was so thankful, seeing that I had not showered for two days. They finished around 10:00, and that's when Chris left to go play in his hockey game.<br />
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When Chris got home around 11:30, I was still awake on the couch. Evie was asleep, so we turned on the TV to watch Jimmy Fallon. We must have both fallen asleep near the end of the show because I woke up around 1:30 in the morning and quickly realized that something was not right. I felt like I was sleeping in a pool of liquid. Thinking that my water had broken, I reached down on the couch, only to find that my hand was covered in blood. My stomach dropped. I frantically woke Chris up, showed him my hand, and ran into the bathroom. I was still bleeding heavily, so I called for Chris. He came running, and I calmly told him that he needed to call our midwives. He was in such a panic, and he didn't have their number saved in his phone, so I told him to call 911 while I dialed for their answering service. The dispatcher told Chris to have me lie on the ground in our bathroom so that he could check for a head (yikes!) or the umbilical cord - thankfully, there was neither. I called my mom and told her that she needed to come quickly to stay with Evie, but she lives about a half hour away. She said she would be there as soon as possible.<br />
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Within minutes, the ambulance and fire truck had arrived at our house. The paramedics came in and calmly checked my vitals as they asked what was going on. Chris showed them the blood on our couch and in the bathroom. They grabbed some towels and asked me to sit on a chair so they could decide on a plan. When they initially asked me which hospital we were supposed to deliver at, it sounded like they were going to transport me there; however, they quickly decided that the bleeding was too heavy and that we needed to get to the nearest hospital as quickly as possible. My mom had still not arrived, but there was no time to wait. They loaded me on to a stretcher and into the ambulance. Chris was forced to stay behind.<br />
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In the ambulance, the medics tried to keep me as calm as possible. I was hooked up to oxygen as they tested my blood sugar and monitored my vitals. They asked me about names we had chosen and told me about their own children. My adrenaline must have been pumping in high gear because my whole body was shaking terribly. I remember staring at the ceiling in an odd state of so-panicked-I-felt-calm, thinking that I might lose my precious baby - that I might come home from the hospital empty-handed. We arrived at the hospital and went straight to triage, where a nurse was waiting. I changed into a gown as I gave the details of the evening for a second time. The nurse called for the doctors and grabbed a doppler to check on the baby's heartbeat. Silence. She calmly moved the doppler around my abdomen, searching. Nothing. I started to cry. After a few more minutes of waiting, I finally heard that wonderful <i>woosh-woosh</i> sound. A heartbeat! Thank you Jesus! <br />
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The residents arrived and decided to do an exam to try and figure out the cause of the bleeding. By this time, I was in full labor with contractions every two minutes. Finally, <i>finally</i>, Chris arrived by my side. I was so glad to have him there. As the resident carefully examined me, she mentioned that she was afraid that she was feeling my placenta, which would be very dangerous. They did a quick ultrasound and determined that the placenta was indeed very low. We were soon informed that an emergency c-section was in order. With the placenta being in a compromised position and the baby's heartbeat being inconsistent, it was the safest route to go. They brought paperwork for the surgery as the anesthesiologist came to ask us some questions to prep for surgery. I was discouraged - this was a far cry from the natural homebirth suite we had intended to birth in. However, I was willing to do anything at this point to insure that my baby was safe...<br />
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**Read part 2 <a href="http://homeofthehansens.blogspot.com/2014/03/ambers-birth-story-part-2.html">here</a>**</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-65581534112662060792014-03-01T17:59:00.001-05:002014-03-01T17:59:57.261-05:00Welcome Amber Wilde<div style="text-align: center;">
Our beautiful bundle, a precious baby girl, arrived on Wednesday, February 26 (her daddy's birthday) at 4:34 am - 7 lbs. 5 oz. and 19 inches long. She is healthy and beautiful.</div>
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Her story is a traumatic one that I am still trying to process. I'll post more details soon.</div>
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I know it's been a long time since I've updated this little corner, but whenever I sit down to do it, I am just so exhausted. So much has happened, not necessarily in our lives, but in the lives of some people we dearly love. It's been an emotional few months.</div>
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For starters, Evie and I have been sick on and off since the beginning of December. We both had the flu, then I had bronchitis for a month and she got a virus. Just as we were on the mend, she got an ear infection and a sinus infection. My poor baby. As of now though, we are all doing much better and are hoping to stay that way.</div>
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A few weeks ago, one of Chris' oldest and dearest friends was diagnosed with an extremely rare form of cancer. (Only 50 cases in history.) He went from being diagnosed one day to surgery the next and has already finished his first round of very aggressive chemo. Perhaps the thing that makes this so much more difficult is that he is supposed to get married in October. My heart is absolutely broken for this diagnosis, but I fully believe that God is our Healer and can use this as an incredible testimony. In the mean time, Chris asked me to buzz his head in support of his friend. </div>
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And oh, there are so many other hard things happening to those around us. My brother is being tested for MS. A friend recently suffered a miscarriage. Another of Chris' old friends lost his father to a sudden heart attack. A mother from MOPS has been staying with her new baby girl in the hospital for several weeks now after the baby had open heart surgery and many complications. </div>
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And yet, here we are, eagerly awaiting the arrival of our second precious baby, who could come any day now. It almost feels wrong to be experiencing such joy and anticipation as we watch those we love go through the darkest of times. I know that we are to laugh with those who laugh and weep with those who weep, which we have been doing, but I feel guilty asking others to laugh with us in our happy times when they may be hurting. And yet, I know that the joy of the Lord is our strength. Perhaps the joy we have to share with others in our good moments will be the strength they need to get through their own difficult ones.</div>
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It was my last semester of college. I was sitting in the cafe between classes, half studying, half daydreaming. A girl who I knew (but not well) walked in and was saying hi to a few people. She had been really sick - in and out of the hospital, though I don't know why - and was just coming back to campus after a doctor visit. All of a sudden, she didn't look so well. She leaned over the nearest trash can and just started throwing up.</div>
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There weren't many people in the cafe at this point, so I jumped up and asked her what she needed. Napkins. I went to the counter, grabbed a handful, and got her a cup of water. While this was happening, an older gentleman (a ministry student) stood up at his table and started loudly praying for her, that Jesus would help her and comfort her and bring healing. And then he just stood there, watching her.</div>
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I remember looking at him and being so angry inside at the way he responded. Do I believe in prayer? Absolutely. Prayer is powerful. But so is action. Instead of offering help to this poor girl, this man made a show of his prayers and did nothing to be the hands and feet of Jesus. Now I'm not saying that his intentions were wrong - I believe that he felt he was doing the right thing. But to anyone watching, it looked like hypocrisy. </div>
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I'm not writing this to pat myself on the back for helping this girl. In fact, I found the whole experience to be very eye-opening. There are so. many. times. that I offer to pray for someone in need but don't lift a finger to actually help them. Maybe it would be inconvenient or uncomfortable or costly, but isn't that the type of life that Jesus calls me to? I say that I want to be used by God to make a difference, but I often waste the opportunities He provides.</div>
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I want to be better about this. I want to be His hands and feet just as much (or more) than I am His mouth.</div>
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<i>37 “Then these righteous ones will reply, ‘Lord, when did we ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 Or a stranger and show you hospitality? Or naked and give you clothing? 39 When did we ever see you sick or in prison and visit you?’</i></div>
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I have struggled through depression ever since Evie was born. It's not at all something I expected to come with motherhood, but I still battle it on a daily basis. Through counseling, I have begun to recognize some of the roots of my depression - guilt, fear, judgment, anxiety. They are the ever-present quiet voices in my mind, critiquing my every move and decision. </div>
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These are the types of thoughts that constantly beat me up from the inside out. I have never liked them, but I have always embraced them. They are simply a part of me. If I'm thinking them, they must be true, right? </div>
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We often expect Satan to come at us with a full frontal attack. And sometimes, he does. But more often than not, he works in the most subtle of ways - ways that we don't even recognize. </div>
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Satan comes to kill, steal, and destroy us in any way we will allow him. He is the author of lies; God is the Author of Truth. And what does God say about me? He calls me His child, adopted into His family. He tells me I am loved. He tells me that I have been made blameless in His sight through Christ. Satan brings fear and anxiety; God is a god of perfect peace. Because I am certain that I am a loved daughter of God, I know that these thoughts are not of Him. Since my identity is in Christ, they are not of me, either. I need to recognize them for what they are - lies, intruders, thieves. The enemy. And even though there might not be much I can do to keep them from knocking at my heart's door, I certainly don't have to let them in. When one of these critical, guilt-ridden thoughts pops into my head, I call it as it is. <i>You are not of God, you are not of me. You are Guilt, and you are of the enemy. <b>You are not welcome here anymore.</b></i></div>
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I'll admit that it has been difficult. Sometimes, I find myself trying to justify the thoughts - opening the door of my heart, even just a crack. It's almost like I can feel myself having to throw my body against the door to keep them from invading. In desperation, I find myself turning to God:<i> I need you now. If this is not Truth, then show me Truth. Replace the lies - I can't hold the door much longer.</i></div>
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And He has been faithful. His voice is often quiet and still, but it is there. It will take time for me to learn to recognize it, but I know He is there with me. I don't have to open the door to the lies any longer.</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-14300888289444502942013-10-29T21:42:00.000-04:002013-10-29T21:42:01.756-04:00mama guilt<div style="text-align: center;">
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As a mom, I try to do my very best for my daughter. I want to feed her the healthiest food, dress her in the cutest clothes, and teach her everything she needs to learn. Sometimes, I get so caught up in these petty little things. Yes, I want to feed my daughter healthy food, but chicken nuggets aren't going to spoil that every now and then. And so what if her shirt has stains on it? That's not going to matter to her, so why does it matter so much to me? </div>
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With all of these mental "must-do" lists, it's so easy to lose sight of what really matters - making sure that Evie knows she is loved unconditionally. Am I really showing her that when I feed her organic food, or does she see it more when we snuggle and watch Sesame Street together in our pjs? </div>
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I need to let go of these things, these matters of secondary importance, and just let myself <i>be</i> in the moment with my daughter. I want her to remember that we played in the leaves and read stories and built towers, not that she wore cute clothes or ate three servings of fruit everyday. I want her to remember the love she felt.</div>
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It's not going to be an easy transition for me as the perfectionist that I am, but it starts with grace. </div>
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Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-14075855777726105702013-10-28T10:51:00.002-04:002013-10-28T12:50:04.556-04:00Evie speakI have been amazed these last few weeks at how many new words Evie is picking up. She is very aware of the things we say and the sounds we make, and she often will imitate us at the most funny moments. It has made me realize that we need to be careful to use our language in a thoughtful way at all times. I want to share some of Evie's words - her version of them and what I have found that they mean.<br />
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<i>hi - </i>hi<br />
<i>muh - </i>milk<br />
<i>mama</i> - mama :) She often says this repeatedly now because she likes when I respond with, "Yes?"<br />
<i>dada - </i>daddy<br />
<i>dah-dah - </i>doggy, not to be confused with "daddy"<br />
<i>sop </i>- soup<br />
<i>bah-bah </i>or <i>bah-boo </i>- baby; she says this as she pats my tummy or if she sees a baby<br />
<i>up - </i>this means both up and down, which can get confusing<br />
<i>cheese - </i>cheese<br />
<i>wa-wa - </i>water<br />
<i>side </i>- outside<br />
<i>teez </i>- toothbrush<br />
<i>night-night - </i>bedtime<br />
<i>hep </i>- help<br />
<i>tig </i>- tiger, her favorite toy<br />
<i>hey </i>- hey or hi<br />
<i>tee-tee </i>- TV<br />
<i>bye-bye - </i>bye, also she uses this to reference cars<br />
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<i>sah </i>- sock<br />
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<i>dah - </i>please; not sure why she says "dah" for please but can clearly say cheese, peas, etc.<br />
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<i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hi my beautiful baby. It was so good to see you again yesterday. Your daddy and I can't wait to finally meet you in person. We love you so much already.</span></i></div>
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Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-62870039609758440492013-09-14T21:34:00.002-04:002013-09-14T21:34:37.390-04:00the detailsSo yes, the secret is finally out - we are expecting baby #2. It happened just when I had about given up hope. We were on our very last cycle of clomid before there would be a mandatory break from the medication, along with visits to a fertility specialist. And then, on June 25, I took a pregnancy test in the wee hours of the morning. And it was positive. <br />
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And I couldn't believe it. As much as I wanted to break the news to Chris in some creative, special way, I couldn't contain my joy and excitement. I ran right into the bedroom and turned on the light, startling him awake. And then I told him. He jumped up and was so surprised and happy right away.<br />
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Around 5 weeks, we had a blood test and early ultrasound to confirm. I was already beginning to feel sick, so the doctor wanted to see if there might be multiple babies. (Thankfully, no.) Since then, we have had two more ultrasounds where we got to see our tiny peanut. Even the second time around, it is surreal.<br />
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But ahh, the symptoms. I have been extremely sick this pregnancy. I was sick with Evie to the point where I vomited most days for a few early months, but it was nothing compared to this. I have been nauseous and vomiting since week 5. It's now week 15, and though things are getting much better, I still vomit most days. We even had to spend some quality time in the emergency room because I was so dehydrated. At another appointment, my urine analysis confirmed that I was spilling ketones and proteins. Thankfully, they didn't send me back to the hospital that time. As awful as I feel much of the time, I still can hardly believe that we have been entrusted with another tiny baby. We are not deserving, yet God has blessed us greatly.<br />
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Our anatomy scan is coming up in a few weeks, but we are not planning to find out if we are expecting a boy or girl. As difficult as it might be, I know it will make the birth so much more exciting. We're just going to do a very simple, neutral nursery. It will be lovely though.<br />
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Now that the emotional journey of infertility treatments/appointments are over for the time, I can't help but lament that this will likely be my last pregnancy. I know that sounds selfish for me to say right now, especially with so many people struggling to get pregnant. I don't mean it that way. It's just that I don't want to put myself and our marriage through the emotionally exhausting regimen of fertility medication again, or at least for a very long time. It's stressful, and it's simply not fun at all. We do have hopes to adopt in the future, though it is a very lengthy process. And I'm sure it's very different from pregnancy. So for the time being, I'm trying my very best to cherish these short months and enjoy every moment as we eagerly await our miracle baby.Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-76582592068825705012013-09-11T21:36:00.001-04:002013-09-11T21:36:14.421-04:00pregnant<div style="text-align: center;">
Yes, I'm pregnant! Fifteen weeks today, due on March 5. I'll save the details for another post.</div>
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The weather here has been getting drastically cooler these last few days. Fall is certainly approaching. But today, the breezy sunshine gave Evie and I the perfect opportunity for a spur of the moment picnic on our front lawn! </div>
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For the longest time, I refused to put Evie in the nursery room at church. I didn't have a legitimate reason; I just wasn't ready to let go. When we finally did, the first few times were rough. She cried and reached for me as I walked away. I wanted to cry too. Now, she (usually) goes in happily and eager to play with all of the toys. And I still want to cry.</div>
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It almost feels silly to write this about the church nursery - a place she visits only once a week for an hour and a half. But as a mama, it is the first of many, many times when I will have to relinquish control of my sweet baby to the world. <i>The first of many "letting go's." </i></div>
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But I was recently reminded from a more mature, seasoned mother that Evie is not truly my child. She is, above all else, God's child. His precious daughter. I have simply been given the privilege and responsibility of raising her for a short time. That's not something that I can easily accept, to be honest. I love this little girl with my whole being. To think that she is only mine for a time is scary and painful. And yet, I am excited to see what God does with her little life. I simply need to learn to let go gracefully. After all, He will never let go of her.</div>
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The past two years have been my first real attempts at gardening. We started quite small last year and expanded a bit this year. Somehow, I ended up with several tomato plants both years even though we typically don't eat a lot of tomatoes. This year, I began looking for recipes to use up those beautiful red fruits. </div>
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And what did I find? Salsa. We love salsa around here, so it seemed like a perfect solution. I gathered up the eight tomatoes we had, searched pinterest for recipes, and ended up modifying a few into my own. I'll admit, at first, I was a tiny bit disappointed with the results. It just didn't seem quite right to me. But when I pulled it out of the fridge today (after making it yesterday), it was <i>so yummy.</i> I think it just needed time for the flavors to really steep together. </div>
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Here's the recipe that I used. I'll warn you, it has a bit of a kick to it. I'd probably call it medium, but I guess that's all relative.</div>
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Preheat oven to 375. Cut tomatoes into halves and place on baking sheet with the insides facing up. Peel onion, cut in half, and place one half on baking sheet face up. Cut the caps off the jalapenos (and remove seeds and membranes if you don't want it as spicy). Place jalapenos and garlic cloves (peeled) on baking sheet with onion and tomatoes. Roast in the oven for about 30-40 minutes. Allow to cool some. In a food processor or blender, blend all ingredients to desired consistency. Taste and adjust salt and cilantro as desired. </div>
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I personally recommend allowing the salsa to completely chill in the fridge before serving. It will keep for about a week in the fridge, or you can freeze it! I'm not sure about canning this particular recipe because I know that tomatoes require very specific acidity levels.</div>
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Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-77516093282874949332013-08-06T14:21:00.001-04:002013-08-07T02:21:31.915-04:00what i love about you<div style="text-align: left;">
My sweet little Evie Bean,</div>
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I can't believe how quickly you are growing and changing right before my eyes. Your curious spirit and independent personality are showing more and more each day. You are really starting to find your voice, too! It's amazing how much you can communicate with us, even though your language is still minimal. </div>
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As you have grown, you have developed some adorable quirks and habits. I don't always realize how precious these moments are because they are part of my many days with you; however, other people are always commenting on how smart and adorable you are! We can never get through the store without a stranger stopping to chat with you and tell you how beautiful you are (or how much you look like your daddy!) </div>
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I want to remember these silly little moments with you because they are the moments that make motherhood worthwhile. Moments pass so quickly, and I don't want to lose these precious memories.</div>
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<i>I love the way you say hi to us when we go to get you in the morning.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you stomp your little feet when you're frustrated or just being goofy with us.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you say hi to everyone we pass at the store.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you cuddle your tiger and your baby, mimicking the way we pat your back and kiss your face.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you happily run around naked after your baths.</i><br />
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<i>I love the adorable animal sounds you make! You currently know cow, monkey, pig, and duck, though you sometimes get them mixed up :)</i></div>
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<i>I love how you belly laugh when Daddy bounces you on the bed, and how you immediately stand up and say, "Two!" when he's done because you want to do it again.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you stand on your tip toes to reach the piano keys, and how you light up when you "play."</i></div>
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<i>I love how you immediately lay on the ground when we tell you no to something you want to do.</i></div>
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<i>I love the way you babble so confidently to us as if we know exactly what you are saying.</i></div>
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<i>I love how you sing and dance when music comes on!</i></div>
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I love you so much my little bean - big as the sky!</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-74160380376241766532013-08-02T22:06:00.000-04:002013-08-02T22:06:42.192-04:00a girl and her garden<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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Well, it finally happened. Evie learned to say the word "no."</div>
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I knew it would be coming soon because she has already mastered the art of shaking her head from side to side when she is unhappy about something. Then, a few days ago, I said to her, "Can I have a kiss?" And she simply said, "No," and walked away.</div>
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And it has been her favorite word ever since.</div>
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I actually find it to be humorous and even kind of cute because I'm not sure that she completely understands what it means. For example, if I offer her a sippy cup of milk and say, "Do you want your milk?" she will tell me no but then gladly take it from me. </div>
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It really amazes me how quickly she is learning and growing. It seems like the baby days are getting further and further behind us with toddlerhood just ahead. I love seeing her explore and try new things, but there is a part of me that misses her little baby self. I'm excited though to watch her grow into the beautiful girl she is already becoming.</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-47247065721691113222013-07-26T10:19:00.001-04:002013-07-26T10:19:12.837-04:00it's time<div style="text-align: right;">
I never in a million years expected that I would fall victim to postpartum depression. And yet, it hit me hard and fast, leaving me feeling lost in the sea of motherhood. I waited for it to go away. When it didn't, I finally talked to my doctor about getting help. Since then, I've been taking an antidepressant/anti-anxiety medication every day.</div>
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Here I am now, over one year later, still fighting this battle daily. The raw edge has certainly been dulled by the medication, but it is not enough. I still struggle.</div>
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It's time to get help.</div>
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I'm looking into seeing a therapist and possibly joining a support group. Just saying those things makes me feel so very nervous and even embarrassed. But the truth is, this is long overdue. I need healing.</div>
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It's time.</div>
Erica http://www.blogger.com/profile/03167228665889493573noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7554079365398568531.post-43483684812378383832013-07-14T21:02:00.002-04:002013-07-14T21:02:52.328-04:00support<div style="text-align: right;">
Last night, Chris and I went to dinner with his parents after church. We had Evie with us, which is always an adventure. She sat in the wooden highchair squealing, tossing crayons, and munching on anything she could get her hands on. An older couple sitting next to us commented several times on how cute she was. They smiled and waved at her, and they even said goodbye to her when they left. For once, I didn't feel pressured or judged by those around me to keep my daughter quiet and behaving perfectly. They recognized her for who she is - an energetic toddler - and appreciated her presence. It was so refreshing.</div>
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But it got me thinking... why doesn't society support parents more? Think about it. Marketing that targets children is everywhere. Who can blame a tired, worn out mama for giving in to her children's demands for that sugary cereal or candy snack at the grocery store? Parents may dread taking their rambunctious children to restaurants for fear of the judging glances from strangers. Wouldn't it be nice if society helped making parenting easier? After all, it's the hardest job out there. Even a kind word from a stranger in the mall or grocery store can make a mom (or dad) feel like she is doing a good job.</div>
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Since I have become a mom, I find that I am much more sympathetic towards other parents - the one with the screaming toddler at Target or the sobbing baby in church service. Parenting is hard, and parents need all the support they can get.</div>
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We need to support each other.</div>
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Wow, sorry for the long silence. We've had a few busy days and a few not-so-busy days spent enjoying the beautiful sunshine. Either way, I was absent.</div>
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Chris and I just returned from a quick two day trip to Ohio to visit the Alive Music Festival. A small group of our students were there, so we wanted to go check it out. It was so so hot, but I loved being outside the whole day! It sure was nice to come home to my sweet baby girl though.</div>
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